There are so many things in my head, buzzing, like flies around food that I feel like I can't put them on paper quick enough. It's my first official entry here, and while I won't dive into details about who I may or may not be, I will begin to decompress all of my inner thoughts, turmoils, troubles, everything will be reflected here. No holds barred, everything here with redacted or removed information.

  Home life is the same. Eldest daughters are truly one of a kind; to any and all eldest daughters out there, you have my love and my appreciation because the burden of which we carry not just our emotions, but others, it quite commendable. Everyday feels harder to work through, but this new job is certainly helping me process and feel productive again.

  I'm trying not to feel so tired all the time but it's so difficult because I'm always moving, always working, so while I feel it's great for me to stay busy, it does get exhausting. My sleep schedule isn't fixed, it's completely out of whack. One thing I am super thankful for is the fact that I'm going to be extremely busy at work. No time to gossip or do things that are unnecessary.